Being Poor, Feeling Blessed

This holiday season we celebrated Yule in our own way, and Willow went to a birthday party for a friend of hers that is 4 years old....Willow is 5 now. This Christmas is very tough. I don't have any income, and we are struggling with house payments. I feel awful for only having one big-(ish) item for Willow. I got her an easy bake oven and an extra pack of whoopie pie mix. That's what she wanted. I got some candy for stocking stuffers and $11 worth of mostly art supplies from the Dollar Tree.

My significant other gave her two angry bird plush toys, one makes sounds, and a couple stocking stuffers. He is spending the holidays in his home country, and I miss him dearly.

I just feel like I wish I could have done more, but I know that family will be giving her gifts on Christmas Eve when we all get together. I also know that Christmas morning Santa will have a bike and helmet waiting at her grandparent's house! I believe it has the Disney character from the movie Brave on it. One of our all time favorites. I just hope she isn't disappointed by what's under our tree.

My heart sinks a little.

When I think about this self pity, I get mad at myself. There are people out there that literally have NOTHING. People are struggling all over the world and I am blessed enough to have this laptop in front one and a warm kitchen to sit in as I type. I have enough food to fill my belly today and tomorrow, and clean water to drink. My eyes tear up, and I am so very thankful for this. Even with all of my problems I know there is a greater power watching over me, and guiding me. I realize my life will always be difficult, but I have more than a lot of people if you think globally.

I am so very blessed...even if we only have a couple presents under our Charlie Brown tree.
(See that HERE).

~Amanda Star~